Chain

It's been happening every week, I am afraid of the frequency. 

I am afraid that all the normal, peaceful moment is just a lie. 

I am not getting better.

And my head is filled with all these negative thoughts. 

In parallel universe, I died a million times

and exploded

and gone beyond the line.

But here, I'm still keeping myself sane

as much as I can.

Why do I have to endure all of this?

Why can't I escape somewhere?

I have been asking myself since this morning.

What chain me here?

I should start, shouldn't I?

Before I can't control it anymore.

Right? Right?